Sisca's Blog: Life is Fair or Not?

Hey guys! I've been so lazy to update my personal blog here as I have to work overtime almost everyday to meet a lot of deadlines. Finally I got a minute to share what has happened to me in these few months has changed a bit of my selfish heart..

So, I will tell you a true story of myself. I have to admit I've been struggling with my entire life these few months. I'm broke, you know, I don't have enough money to live (though I have a lot of work deadlines to meet everyday), I don't have much friends to share my problems, I don't have much energy to stay awake, my heart beat is way too fast, I'm worried about a lot of things, et cetera. I can't explain why it happened, well, it just happened :) Till today I get a paid survey job (you know what my job is, right?), and this one struck me at the most.

It was not easy for me to answer this straightforward question. I needed couple minutes to think more about it, then ended up with myself being so nostalgic with my-very-happy-junior-high-school life. I thought I just want to run away and blame every people I met since I have many problems. First, I clicked on "Not sure", then I realized it's too weird if I'm uncertain about life fairness. Then I thought about the recent Ahok case, which drove my mind into my second click "Life is not fair". Then finally I reminded myself of what has happened to me recently - broke, worried, disappointment, sadness, depression, loneliness, tiredness - I realized I need to replace all these negative words! I jumped on FB timeline and found a friend of mine shared an inspirational video from Jack Ma, Alibaba founder. You can check out the video below (I got the full version video on Youtube so I can share in my blog):

We never give up. We keep on fighting. We keep changing ourself. We don't complain. - Jack Ma

I felt enlightened. It's like realizing that I'm not the one in this world having problems. There's always somebody having bigger problems than you and they survive! Oh God, I felt so ashamed with my stupid thought these few months. I went back to the survey tab and confidently clicked "Life is fair" (all the time). You just need to be grateful of what you have. You don't need to think what you don't have right now. It's kind of changing my mindset.